Iwatch my friends—all applying to study in the US this fall—force themselves into writing their essays. They make themselves sit in a chair, hold an imaginary gun to their head and write. Then they complain about how they can never write well or connect with their emotions.
What you feel is something in between a bunch of disappointments and a chunk of expectations when a Nepali youth leaves the country for further studies. It is estimated that more than 200,000 Nepalis aged 18-24 have already left the country in the past 10 years.